Emotions Running High (abstinance trial)

Sorry I haven't posted any lessons recently I've been a bit fucked up and hopefully they will resume again once I figure out what will come of this current experiment. Perhaps it may be a precurser to something larger but If I really spoke about it here it would nullify the effects so I'm kind of stuck on how to teach this stuff in its purest form so I try to give my personal experience rather than just step 1,2,3,4... which allows a lot of interpretation.

I've been continuing with my abstinance experiment and recently I've found it to be quite difficult. For all you people out there who would like to think they understand that I'm talking a lot of crap and making a mountain out of a molehill, lets see you guys give it up and tell me it doesn't change the way you think.

I'm sort of torn between two mindsets which which seem to come hand in hand in trying to keep this kind of self controll.

No sexy thoughts at all
As I deliver myself from the addiction of self pleasuring I start to wonder should I start again? I've set myself 28 days to coincide with a purification ritual I read a long time ago but I didn't check the phase of the moon so it doesn't really apply. Although I tend not to believe in such things as being important I figure out I know nothing about how these ideas originated or what the benefits of doing this might be so I just try to coincide with what I've read as best I can.

It seems that anywhere I try to get information on masterbation just seems to be encouraging it if not anything else. I feel like todays pornography is leading me down a path I don't want to explore. As I understand how the mind can associate certain stimuli with whatever anchors are available at the time. For example on one site I used to frequent I began to notice users would post comments on the videos such as "Hey check out that guys dick" in the straight sections.

When I say "Don't think of a red triangle" not many people are actualy able to complete that task without thinking about what they're trying not to think about.

Also with the introduction of "Jailbait" into most mainstream streaming video sites, often as the cover picture for another unrelated video I begin to question "why is that user doing that?" Jailbait started off as a joke with the motivational posters but I think its a joke too far.

Any female form acting or portrayed as the sexual stimuli in which we have grown accustomed to regardless of age will create a reaction. Why is it becoming so socially accepted for girls younger and younger to become sex symbols?

One of the things that I have heard a lot of paedophiles have said in defence is that "You used to proscecute Gays and Lesbians it wont be long till we're accepted" and now I fear it may becoming closer to a reality than most people think.

I am no longer a teenager but as the motivational pictures joked at "You keep getting older and they keep staying the same." Maybe I shouldn't be making as big a deal as I am about this but maybe I should.

Porn has now became degrading, disgusting, and seemed to have became a mimic'd and deeply faked expression of what sex is supposed to represent and if anybody disagrees then why don't you show me your willpower and give it up and you'll see it as the addiction that it truely is.

Ultra super sexy thoughts
As I set out on this experiment I assumed that my powers of synchronicity would increase... I felt like it did for the first couple of days but it has deeply dwindled to almost nothing. I tried to reingauge my sex drive by watching porn but not actualy masterbating which only lead to the disgusting revelations I speak of above.

As theorized in my universal model anything wich does not move only generates potential energy. A bit like for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. A magician knows this that the harder a person concentrates the deeper the relaxation once he lulls you into the false sense the trick is over and it is at that moment he performs the sleight of hand.

On a side note I allways find this works 100% for me but whenever you guys are having a slump in the girls market just stop masterbating I dunno if its cause you're constantly randy all the time that girls can pick up on the pent up sexual energy (beleive me, you'll be looking at girls in a much much more seductive way) or perhaps it is a universal force at work but as I firmly beleive and understanding of both elements is vital to controlling such forces as one works with the perceived reality from the person living it (yourself), and the one which is created once you share your viewpoints and the person's opinion is mixed with your own.

My brother is currently undergoing the same changes as I did at his age and I know he's having a tough time dealing with the strange goings on (His clothes just went on fire for no reason, I seen him kick away a ball and moments later he took it out his pocket) the advice I gave him was to not think of these things at all because once something is percieved it changes and he'll only start to wonder if he's going crazy and add excess meaning to something which is not important.

Although those experiences were very real to him and he was thoroughly disturbed by them I made sure that he understood there was allways going to be a logical explanation derived from peoples past experiences and assumptions that strange things never happen without an explanation. This in itself cannot is technically more valid as evidence any more than your experience so what I told him just to ignore them and if they we're truely something special or paranormal he would give strength to that energy by letting it go unperceived and the events should create bigger mysteries that would involve other people. This has became a silent pact we now have with each other and I only feel it wont be too long before my youngest brother joins us as he has allready exhibited strange behaviours and he's became a bit of a psychic vampire.

I wonder if this is all my fault at the things I tried to acheive when I was younger. If it is now my curse to be forever dealing with whatever darkness I let into my family or whether I am dealing with something which has existed long before me. My family is no stranger to strange going ons and it feels like I seem to be the most mentaly equipted to deal with it without falling into hysteria.

I've kinda lost track of what I'm writing but I've basicly rambled on enough but maybe I'll come back and share some more thoughts or maybe get back to the lessons

HowToConASewer

The Ultimate judgment

I've decided to transcribe a conversation I had with an old friend whom I was involved with when I first started to develope my abilities. I hope it provides a mirror into my character and perhaps people can see deep down how I really feel.

S: Stop getting involved in things you don't know or understand. Just live your life and stop fucking about with people. Sorry but that's just my opinion.

Me: Things back then were different. I was different.

S: No they were not, your still the same still chasing things you'll never be able to controll, they'll get the better of you and again you'll be alone.

Me: I'm allways alone

S: Exactly

Me: I've got something in me other people don't

S: Why dont you put this aside and try being with someone.

Me: I didn't just decide to have this

S: If anything your powers heighten when you have sex silly

Me: Its been 90% a curse but I've learned

S: Neither did I but unlike you I don't go snooping and thinking I can controll things and getting into dark stupid things with mental people like you


Me: I never beleived you. If you were the same as me you'd understand.

She blocked me or went offline at this point but I kept typing anyway

In fact I think you were messing with me
But I'm not angry
I learned from it
When I tried to butterfly you I got a pain in my chest
You're the one full of anger not me
You know this time I really think I've met someone I have a connection with
And I'd actualy be happy if she wasn't with me because I'm not interested in her sexualy
To me thats real love
Even if your not listening anymore I'm gonna say it
Following this has shown me amazing things
I've experienced things most people will never comprehend
And hurt to the point I've wanted to die at the things I couldn't change
But everytime it happened I grew inside
And I seen a lot of problems with the world
And I felt like I couldn't choose between myself and other people
Most people find a happy medium but with me
I gotta go all the way
And I never give up
I'm Not doing this because I think I'm better than other people
I'm doing it because I'm the same
But I feel things in a different way
And I can see the cracks
I'm trying to restore balance
But in doing so I have to give up everything
I just need to make sure I'm ready
And know I haven't hurt anyone on the way
You got involved with bad shit when you met me but I beat those things ages ago
But now I have to come back and deal with it in all the people that were affected
I still have hopes and dreams
But at every turn I am denied them
You of all people should know what that feels like
We got to learn to fix this and nobody else but me is willing to try.

Pressupositions and Telekinesis

For anyone who is willing to put in the hours/weeks/years of dedication in the field of Telekinesis and Psi manipulation then I have some interesting psychology points and a few personal theories on the subject.

I gave up on telekinesis about 1 week after I start and not because I wasn't getting results. Sure I remember that moment I finally got that psi-wheel to spin (I even remember the song that was playing at that exact moment, Pink Floyd - Echoes.. aaahh memories!) and it didn't take long for me to convince my friends and girlfriend at the time that I wasn't blowing when I could place it across the room and still do it.

"What a fucking waste of time all this has been learning to manipulate the most frictionless and flimsy wheel I've ever seen... When I could easily do the same thing with my hand!"

Was it the wind? The heat from my hands? I had no doubt at that time it was anything other than my mind but I had to admit it was bloody pathetic to be honest. I used to go on the boards talking to guys across the world all sharing techniques and theories on why it worked. To tell the truth I've went back and there has been literally NO PROGRESS! If anything I think it went backwards, but don't worry I haven't lost heart.

I guess my telekinesis training was handy after all once I had learned other things. One of the hardest things to overcome and one of the most fundamental problems that most people will have trouble breaking through with is actually believing that it is actually possible themselves and the Internet isn't having their leg and trying to make a fool of them.

How about trying to hold the psiwheel still as it tries to spin around?

The idea behind a pressuposition is that although we don't allways portray 100% of the information when we communicate people can deduce from our language the missing information to make up the whole story. Although people would mostly assume themselves that this would only be the assumptions of the person but it is not allways the case.

For example,

• Gary was a premature ejaculator, and whenever he was having sex with his girlfriend he used to tell himself over and over that he wasn't going to ejaculate till his girlfriend has an orgasm and he can feel like a man again.

Now the pressuposition in this is that Gary beleives he is going to ejaculate so in turn he wills himself not to. As most men will agree this approach NEVER WORKS! On the other hand has your girlfriend ever told you to orgasm yourself as she's getting a sore head?

"What the fuck bitch? I have needs and you need to turn me on before you can get my lovejuice."

• Gary couldnt ejaculate and whenever he had sex with his girlfriend he would just go on for hours and hours but all his focus was on how painfull his girlfriends vagina was getting but he couldn't just push a button to make it happen.

You see if Gary is trying to ejaculate his pressuposition is that he is unable to do so. Now you see that presuppositions have lots of power in trying to trick your sub conscience into beleiving things it doesn't want to.

The next time any of you guys plans to show off your telekinesis why don't you ask the person that you plan to show it to "try and "hold it still while you move it." Not try to move it. Move it.

If getting past your own beleifs in reality is hard enough to move things with your mind then getting other people who can theoreticaly just stop it from happening with their "disbeleif" you now have a piece of mental trickery to help controll the situation and if it turns out it doesn't move perhaps you better look out for the psychic ability of the person who just wooped your ass without even realising it

HowToConASewer (is not responsible for sore vagina's or frigid men)

The Big Question

From the psychics perspective the fact that they are admitting to a skewed reality that relies on succeeding to a certain degree to affirm to ones belief and tolerance to society.

On the other hand a schizophrenic person also not conforming to the perceived reality of society in which he perceiving thoughts outside his head and many things that make him believe in forces not perceived by anything society is ready to admit to the schizophrenic hence the term paranoia.

We can then assume from this information until any new evidence is brought to the situation that by pure odds that perhaps the psychic may be schizophrenics or the schizophrenics may be psychics.

Being in the Psychic division we have to find a method to determine a way of proving the alternate reality and our existence to society. If we want to be accepted we must find a way to educate ourselves in our abilities and find a meter to measure ourselves and explore what is different about us. In doing so we liberate our limitations on ourselves created by the doubts of society.

Is it just
me or do I feel like I have a purpose in life much greater than the boundaries of what society has limited me to believe and not to feel ridiculed?

This is a new age and a changing world and I ain't no god damn hippy. I pride myself in my ability to subjectively challenge and try to understand things most people will never even comprehend. That is what is separates me from aside from the schizophrenic. I know how these extra senses can confuse and trouble me but I learned to understand them and I can now manage. I learned to shield myself from bad energy. I learned that with this power had to come understanding and that it did not make invincible. That lust for more power leads me to question my confidence in my sanity and what kind of karmatic rules and limitations could turn towards terrible acts of madness. Perhaps maybe the schizophrenic doesn't have the strength to defend himself from that horrible chaos that is the world of a psychic.

We are a separate kind of people and we know that everyone has it within them to learn and grow in ways more beautiful than they the can understand.

We have to understand the psychology of our powers. The nature of reality itself or we shall be forever bound. We know the governments of the world have already done extensive experiments with psychics. We need to organize our own. Write a set of rules that isn't afraid to change. Rules that hold no sentimentality. We are not afraid to be wrong because we learn from it.

Search deep inside how you feel. Why should we give half measures into trying to understand something so real to so many of us yet so distrusted. We do not need a creed. Or a fancy name or symbol to give us a false sense of unity and dogma. To which people can contest. We quietly work away to learn but only by working together can we achieve anything.

I'm tired of being unsure.

Lets do something about this.

Hypnosis script to meet your spirit guide/lucid dream

Preparation

Ok first and foremost I've developed this technique with a mix of hypnosis and basic constructs to protect yourself if you believe that you can be harmed (its allways best to be on the safe side!).

First before we proceed I have a few points I'll need to discuss.

1. Your gonna have to beleive its gonna work or atleast act like you've done this loads of times before. If you act unsure about yourself this will only rub off onto the other person (it really is this simple and its one of the most important parts in my opinion.)
2. If the person asks any questions or tries to make assumptions about hypnosis themselves just say "it doesn't really work like that" cause you want to skew their perception not confirm a reality.
3. Your gonna have to use a commading voice and controll your tonality, eg. when your counting down from 10 start lowing your tonality along with the numbers till you get a big deep ZERO from the bottom of your stomach. If you reach the bottom of your range before zero just go back up high again but make sure you end on a big deep ZERO.
4. Hypnosis depends utterly on compliance. If you suspect you subject isn't playing along to the best of their abilities and messing just stop and say they're too excited for it to work very politely. This is whats known in the Pick Up Artist world as the Freeze-out which basicly means your not gonna hypnotise them unless they beg you to hypnotise them and u aint gonna stand for messing around.

Now get them into a relaxed position where somebody could comfortable fall asleep. The closer you are to them the better as you want to sound right in their head. Also keep the light on darkness doesn't actualy help in fact it just makes the person more likely to actualy just fall asleep if they're tired. Also its a good point to show them where their solar plexus is as you're going to talk about it.

Also if you want to give the person a really cool experience you can let them meet their spirit guide without even telling them thats what you were gonna do, this is a good way to awaken people who generaly dont beleive in this stuff.

The Pattern

Now I want you to just relax...

Focus on your breathing...

In through your nose and out through your mouth...

You don't have to close your eyes yet but you when you feel like closing them...

Do so...

(Now this part is used to get rid of any nervous energy or if it's late at night wake them up a bit if u feel like they might accidently fall asleep)

Now I want you to get ready to tense up every muscle in your body for the count of three...

Tense up!

One, Two, Three, Relax...

As you relax I want you to notice that you are still breathing in through your nose and out through your mouth...

Now I want you to get ready to tense up every muscle in your body for the count of four...

Tense up!

One, Two, Three, Four, Relax...

As you relax I want you to notice that you are still breathing in through your nose and out through your mouth...

Now I want you to get ready to tense up every muscle in your body for the count of five...

Tense up!

One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Relax...

As you relax I want you to notice that you are still breathing in through your nose and out through your mouth...

It feels so good to just relax and let go...

(this part will slow down their internal timing)

As you sitting/lying down I want you to stay focused on your breathing...

As you inhale through your nose I want you to do so for the count of three...

And exhale for the count of three also...

As you focus on the timing of your breathing you will notice it feels soooo good just to let go, Hearing only my voice...

Now when you are comfortable with inhaling and exhaling to the count of three, I want to you try and slow down your breathing to the count of four...

As you focus on the timing of your breathing you will notice it feels soooo good just to let go, Hearing only my voice...

Now when you are comfortable with inhaling and exhaling for the count of four I want to you try and slow down your breathing to the count of five...

As you focus on the timing of your breathing you will notice it feels soooo good just to let go, Hearing only my voice...

(increase the numbers to slow down their breathing to a number in which feel they would be comfortable with, now you want to relax their body)

As you are sitting/lying there and focusing on your breathing you fill begin to feel a little heat in your toes....

As you begin to feel unsure if this sensation is real or not you will find that merely thinking about it increases the sensation...

And as you are completely aware of everything that is happening you will feel this warm feeling moving up your feet and into your ankles, completely relaxing them...

As you feel this warm feeling you will notice it feels so good just to let go, Hearing only my voice, And being completely aware of everything that is happening to you...

As you focus on your breathing you will find this feeling moving up again...

Slowly up your legs...

Into your stomach...

It feels so good to relax and give in to this cool warm feeling as it completely relaxes you and your breathing, Hearing only my voice...

And this feeling will move up into your chest...

Into your shoulders...

Down your arms...

Into your hands...

To the tips of your fingers...

As you focus on this feeling you will notice it feels so good to just relax, Hearing only my voice...

Then this feeling will move up your neck...

Into your head...

Totally relaxing your face...

It feels so good to just relax and give into this feeling, Hearing only my voice...

(At this point here they should be completely under but its allways to do this next part a couple of times but changing the scenario. The example given is being on a cloud and floating down into a higher state of concienceness and a place where you want to be, Or it could be walking down a hallway, or anything you feel like saying but make sure you are descriptive!)

Now I want you to imagine you are floating on a cloud...

It is a lovely warm day...

The sky is blue and there is a lovely warm breeze caressing your body...

The cloud is so comfortable...

It feels so good just to relax on your cloud in this lovely blue sky, Hearing only my voice...

I am going to count from Ten to Zero...

As I count down you will notice with every passing breath and every passing number you will begin to feel yourself sinking down into a higher state of concienceness, To a place where you want to be, Completely aware of everything that is happening to you, Hearing only my voice...

10...

9...

8...

7...

6...

It feels so good just to relax hearing only my voice...

5...

4...

3...

2...

1...

0...

(make sure you give a big deep commanding zero and after you've done the cloud thing or the hallway thing one or twice you want to either describe an adventure in which the person will experience and tell you all about when they wake up when you are done you can skip to the end to wake them up or continue this next part to make them meet their spirit guide.)

Now as you focus on your breathing I want you to imagine that you are breathing in white light...

As you breathe in this white light you will find that you are breathing out darkness...

It feels so good to breathe out this bad energy that keeps you on edge and unable to relax...

Once you find that you have completely removed this dark energy from your body by breathing it out you fill find there is more space to fill yourself up with the white light...

Once your body is completely full up from breathing in this white light you will feel a ball of white light begin to form in your solar plexus...

The more you focus on this ball of white light the bigger it grows and fills up with even more light with every passing breath...

As this ball of light grows you will find that it can grow much larger than your body...

Much larger than the room...

Bigger than this house...

Till this ball of light is so big you are unable to tell where the outside edges are and this white light is everywhere...

Now I want you to feel a beam of light coming down from the sky and pierce you right into the center of your being...

This beam of light is..

So powerfull...

It is filling you up with a much brighter light than you ever though possible...

It feels so good to just give in, Hearing only my voice...

I am going to count from Ten to Zero...

As I count down you will feel your ball of light become brighter and brighter...

And as I count down you will become light and lighter...

And Rise up into the sky...

Lifted up by the beam of light...

(Count down same as before)

And suddenly you will find yourself in another place...

It is so bright and this light is everywhere...

It feels soooo good to light this light pass right through you...

And as you do this you will notice something about this light...

This light...

Is Love...

And it is limitless...

It feels so good just to let go...

Now you will find that there is a baby in your arms..

And as you look into this baby's eyes you will realise that this baby is you...

The baby is breathing in time with your breathing...

It is a wonderfull feeling to hold yourself like this...

And as you look at yourself you know everything that will happen in this babies life because it was your life...

And you wish you could give this baby advice because you know everything that will happen to it...

All the good times...

The Bad times...

And then you realise that everything that will happen to this baby is what make's you special...

You see everything as a badge of honour that you were able to survive it all without giving up...

That all those experiences make you who you are...

And that you are not angry...

Or sad...

You are glad...

And in amazement at how special this baby is going to be...

And as you realise this you can let the baby go...

And it dissappears into the limitless Love that surrounds you...

Now I want you to call out for your spirit guide...

And when he appears I want you to ask him if he is there to help you...

And if he is not I want you to tell him to leave...

And when you do you will find your voice is soooo powerfull that he has no choice than to do what you tell him...

And I want you to call out again...

And I want you to keep repeating this process untill you find a guide who is good...

And when you do I want you to ask him...

Is he the highest level being there able to help you?

If he is not send him away...

And keep repeating this process...

Asking if the guide is there to help you...

And then asking If he is the highest level being to help you...

And once you find the guide you are looking for...

You will feel a connection...

And you will feel this guide has been with you all of your life...

Through the good times...

And the bad times...

And you will find that this guide has questions for you and you have questions for your guide...

Now just take some time for him to take you on a journey to help you become more happier in your life...

(give the person some time to do this roughly 10 mintues I usualy give. Now at this point the world is your oyster you can describe anything you want and the person will experience it.)

How to wake up

I am going to count from Ten to Zero...

When I reach Zero you will wake up completely refreshed and able to remember everything that has happened to you....

This will be a positive experience for you and there will be no lasting effects...

10

9

8

7

6

5

4

3

2

1

0

HowToConASewer

Synchronicity (Psychic Molestation 2.0)

Preparation

Ok what you are going to need to do is give up masterbating for the duration untill you complete this part but to be honest I consider it to be a bit like creating potential energy. Like the longer you go without masterbating the more attracted to the other person you are going to feel and the more sexual energy you will ooze but once you have completed this first part it should stay with you forever. Now if anyone has ever heard of speed seduction which was devised by Ross Jeffries (Formaly known as Paul Ross when he was in the Conservative Party for Satanism and enjoy'd pissing off right wing christian chatshow hosts) it is basicly a form of covert hypnosis in which you

1. Create a feeling or emotion in a girl.
2. Anchor that feeling or emotion to a word or touch.
3. Fire off that anchor to all your hearts delight untill you girl is so horny she wants to rape you.

Now this sounds a lot easier than it really is and takes a lot of hard work to master and involves you completely changing your personality for it to become believable. Now one of the biggest problems with Synchronicity is that once you get into this girls timing you have to find a way to will yourself to feel horny and turned on which is not an easy thing to do at a drop of a hat. So here's what you're gonna do.

1. First stop masterbating untill looking at your grannie's knitting monthly magazine starts to make you feel like your gonna empty your nutsack.
2. Find a nice quiet place where nobody will find you with your pants down and get in a nice relaxed mood (just like the way a chick does cause your gonna have to learn to understand how a woman feels) and pull down your pants so your willy feels the breeze.
3. Now start watching some porn but resist the urge to touch yourself. Try and really concentrate on what your feeling and try to get really turned on. Now that little horny feeling that you are feeling in your groin area is ENERGY! Feel its shape how it moves in time with your breathing and try to learn how to focus on it and increase the feeling with your focus.
4. Now here's where the Anchoring part comes, first pick any action you want (I rub my pinky on my left hand cause its easy to do in any situation without looking weird) and this is going to be your magic button and as you are a) watching porn to keep the lust going b) feeling that horny energy feeling c) and performing your anchor, try and feel the horny feeling in your anchor also.

Now because we are guys and we are not so much a slave to our emotions like women its gonna take quite a bit of practice before your created your own little magic turn on spot. And you can create anchors in yourself for just about anything I might add. Think of Pavlov's bell which he rang everytime he fed his dogs and afer a while all he had to do was ring the bell and the dogs started to salivate.

Synchronicity

Now the fundimental part about the preperation is that you learned to understand a) how to percieve your sexual energy and how to store it up and b) give yourself a little magic button to fire the ignition.

1. First and foremost you cannot drink alcohol, cigarettes blunt your spear slightly but alcohol or any kind of downer can seriously hamper your results. Weed helps your focus on your energy quite substantialy as long as you are pretty understanding about your own energy feilds in the first place but unless you consider yourself pretty good at this stuff in the first place it might just confuse you.
2. Get that girl in your peripheral vision. Don't stare at her its very rude and off putting.
3. Now what you want to do is start to try and breath in time with her but not just that, you have to feel that energy feild around your solar plexus which is the place you would normaly feel "the butterflies" and just like you practiced feeling that feeling in another place when you practiced you anchor try to feel her solar plexus energy feild and breathing also and try to become the dominant force (there really is no other way to describe it). You'll know its working when for example: you take a big deep breathe and you see her do likewise and you go in your head "HOLY SHIT ITS WORKING SHE JUST MOVED" and you feel that adrenaline rush, just let it flow through you and relax you further instead of going "WHAT IF ITS JUST A COINCIDENCE?" and fucking up your confidence. You want to get as focused into the moment as possible because the more you're feeling it, the more she will.
4. Now once you feel your connected fire your anchor and focus on how your breathing changes to much deeper breathes and will her to feel exactly as you are. Now this mind sound weird but you're going to have to pretend your cock is a vagina and try to feel the way you want her to feel. You want to be focused on yourself and her at the same time and feel like you are one. Again you'll get the "HOLY SHIT ITS WORKING SHE JUST MOVED" but instead the adrenaline will make you feel even more hornier and you'll feel like a fucking P.I.M.P.
5. At this point I must say it is different with every girl how they like their psychic nether regions to be touched up, It helps if you also try to think what they should be thinking like "Oh my god I'm so horny WTF who is that cute guy over there? Uh huh i hope he comes over and talks to me" A favourite technique of mine is to rise all your energy UP UP UP UP in the breathe in and DOWN DOWN DOWN hard into her vagina on the way down like she is holding in the urge to let out an orgasmic groan.

The proof of the pudding is in when you all of sudden see these girls go all quiet and start crossing their legs and looking rather flustered. At this point you should go talk to them still with that feeling and project it deep into her eyes. The adrenaline rush you'll get from this will be massive but again just fire it down into your loins and she'll feel it too. When your talking to her just focus on that warm fuzzy feeling your getting and let your just voice ooze it. Now there is no way you'll ever be good enough to just make a girl want to rape you without you even having to do anything physical yourself.

If you are shy you're going to have to get over it and take a leap of faith. Maybe you'll fail, maybe you'll succeed it doesnt matter cause what really matters is you got off your ass and tried to improve your situation. Well as I accept I am no supreme being or master teacher I'll accept any comments or ideas anyone has themselves about this and for anyone who thinks its a load of shit I've allready given my scientific explanation but if you want to actualy do it yourself your gonna have to take your mind out of the limiting beleif system of only your 5 senses. I myself beleive in 7

1. Sight
2. smell
3. taste
4. touch
5. hearing
6. thought
7. emotion

Because a sense is a perception so if our thoughts can lie to us (which they regularly do) then they are not us. If you learn to seperate yourself and get right to the center of your being then you'll find you become much much happier as a result and will be no longer confused or ashamed at thoughts or feelings you assume are your own as they are only a condition of your environment.

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The Thelema and meditation

After posting last nights entry I decided to catch up with some reading material I had been meaning to read. The Thelema is a collection of books mostly attributed to Aleister Crowley the famous Occult author. So far I have only read up to Liber IV ( considering the volumes go as far as CMLXIII and I dont even know what number that is) I can see I have a lot of reading ahead of me.

I found Liber I to be something vaguely similar to the kabalistic tree of life (maybe crowleys interpretation) and I from my observations I guess it would really only make sense to someone who is highly educated in occult symbology which is not what I wish to learn.

Liber II states in a nutshell that every man and woman is a star and if you beleive in fate or predertemination then each and everyone of us if we follow our true will (The trick being you have to figure out what your true will is) then we will find that we move freely and easily in our orbit through life. 'Do what you will' does not mean 'do what you like' and and once you find out what it is you want 'do nothing else' as pure will must be 'one' not 'two'.

All of this seems to make sense as long as you beleive in predetermination but even the most scientific mind has to admit that if the laws of nature are definate then surely there must be a pattern as the universal computer works out the exact trajectory of a raindrop to the ground or the amount of years of raindrops it would take for the ground to erode to a river. As we are all biproducts of the laws of nature who is to say that each of us does not have our own tradjectory?

Magic and occultism seeks out to understand the patterns behind the experiences of life. The illusions and contradictions between matter and thought can only be explained contradictory any explanations. For example if god is powered by faith wouldn't any proof of his being in the same instant destroy the logic that binds him? If god was proven true he would also in turn be proven false by his own logic and thus we seek to understand the contradiction hence: if a tree falls in the woods and nobody is there to hear it does it make a sound? If nobody was there could the tree even be said to have existed at all as there is no proof yet we surmise that at least we know from our observations a sound would be made. Thus is the logic of magic.

I found liber III even more interesting that Liber II. Titled as "An instruction for the control of speech, action, and thought." I found the methods quite extreme and I think it may be a long time before I decide I wish to follow through on any of the rites. My favourite being that to controll ones power over his words which goes like

1. Here are practices. Each may last for a week or more.
2. (a) Avoid using some common word, such as "and" or "the" or "but"; use a paraphrase.
(b) Avoid using some letter of the alphabet, such as "t", or "s". or "m"; use a paraphrase.
(c) Avoid using the pronouns and adjectives of the first person; use a paraphrase.
Of thine own ingenium devise others.
2. On each occasion that thou art betrayed into saying that thou art sworn to avoid, cut thyself sharply upon the writs or forearm with a razor; even as thou shouldst beat a disobedient dog. Feareth not the Unicorn the claws and teeth of the Lion?
3. Thine arm then serveth thee both for a warning and for a record. Thou shalt write down thy daily progress in these practices, until thou art perfectly vigilant at all times over the least word that slippeth from thy tongue.
Thus bind thyself, and thou shalt be for ever free.

Here we have a typical mind conditioning that by associating these 'sins' with truama your not likely to forget or slip up very often. I think the method is more important than the result as any behaviour anyone wishes to rid themselves of could easily been done using this self punishment method. I wonder if maybe that removing these very common words that many people could not function without would maybe force the mind to perfom a complete rewiring of how the perceives language as a whole and would perhaps create some kind of split personality as a bew thought structure is created which to me is worrying as the true effects of this are not revealed in this book.

Liber VI is split into 4 parts and so far I have only read the first book. I won't go into it too deeply as there is too much information for me to even do a synopsis but there is one part I did try which is called ASANA.

ASANA is a form of learning to understand that your body will never ever find a comfortable position and that any prolongued stillness will result in itchy noses and fidgeting. It teaches you techniques to sit completely motionless for as long as you can as your position becomes agonising. On my first attempt I managed to sit motionless for nearly two and a half hours and I must admit I was pretty impressed by my own determination. The book outlines many of the mental blocks that are associated with doing this and how to overcome them eg. feeling like you should try an easier position completely destroys the point of the excercise as all positions are uncomfortable and encourages you to start off uncomfortable and in your head assume that you are allready a master of it.

I found the experience of ASANA to be a powerfull one indeed as I overcame the mental blocks that tried to convince me to give up I felt invigorated and full of strength. Like the potential energy of a spring being compressed as I sat still. I must say it really didnt feel like 2 and a half hours and I am definatly gonna try again tonight.

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The beginning of a new start, Synchronicity 1.0

I suppose I better start of with some information on who I am and why I'm doing this.

I had a pretty horrific experience back when I was roughly 15 which started of as a strange dream about the end of the world. At that time i believed it was a dream and I thought it was a really good idea for a book but as time passed my distinctions on what was real blurred quite a lot. There is a wealth of occult knowlege online if you're willing to look for it and I would say that 90% is utter shite but what allways gets me is that after reading lots of different people or writings claiming to have 'the truth' I started to notice that they all follow a certain pattern which lead me to look for what is similar between these writings and I set out to understand just that.

Right now I wont go too deeply into my beleifs (or I'll just end up writing one of the utter shite articles) as reality (or unreality) is changed once it is perceived and the more you explain it the further away from the truth it gets.

I've had some mixed success with rituals in the past but now I feel I have more of a scientific approach to it. I dont beleive in god or spirits I beleive that once you get to a certain level of understanding that all those beleifs become irrelevant.

The first of my experiments is one I have tried to complete many times (and failed) and it involves not masturbating. Now your probably thinking what a weird thing to say but its a very hard thing to do and I could easily guess that 99.999999999% of all men on the planet who ever started will find that once they pop they just can't stop. A lot of cultures pertain this act as to a release of energy and a lot of rituals involve masturbation or sex as an energy release.

So if we are releasing energy then surely by not masturbating it would build up? As a hypnotist I understand that one of the key elements of being able to influence somebody is to able to become totally syncapated with that person. I beleive that cultures in the past would call this act telepathy or mind controll but my explanation exists as this (what you will tend to find is that I tend to beleive the proof and the scientific disproof at the same time feeling that both should prove each other right not each other wrong.)

Synchronicity

Scientific: Once you get locked into another persons timing subliminaly that person will notice and pick up on this feeling of sameness. Examples of this include when you are sitting next to someone you want to seduce you give them that tiny microscopic nudge and if they give it back you know you're in there. Also once you are locked into that persons timing by controlling your emotional state and your own emotions you can lead the person into feeling the same way as they mirror your breathing. Eg. When I change my emotional state to one of a sexual kind my breathing with become deeper as the other person is allready locked into my timing I lead them into this state thus they feel the emotions I feel also.

Mystic: Controlling your emotional state is very much a trained skill you learn through meditation or mastering your chakras. They way the above method feels internaly is very much a rush of emotional energy and to fully get locked in you have to will the other person to feel what you are feeling. One could assume I am sending her energy but I beleive that we are simply communicating on a higher level but for it to work you really have to give into to feeling.

I beleive that an understanding of both explanations is paramount to mastering it. I discovered I could do this after receiving reiki from a spiritual healer at a 'Medium' night at the local town hall. I found the medium's were fruads as they singled me out and told me a lot of crap I just agree'd with just to see how far they would go. The use of yes laddering (asking you questions that continualy force you to answer yes over and over again so that when they ask you something you do not beleive your mind is in a loop and before you can think you've allready say yes and to say no would only cause embarrassment in front of the crowd and the mediums rely on this) and vague descriptions which are easily changed ie. I can see a painting... no?... oh I mean painting a room.

The spiritual healer was up the back and I thought to myself I had to try it out. They reiki simply involved the man saying "you might feel a little bit of heat" (its easy to imagine heat), holding his hands slightly above my head (lightly brushing my hair) and breathing in time with me. I was determined to find out his trick but to say the least the experience was extremely overpowering and I have no doubt in my mind that the man could do something I could not replicate easily.

When I sat back down I felt like my energies were supercharged and that's when I noticed I could almost feel the energies of the woman beside me. (maybe I was in a heightened mental state as who is to say that my observations and syncopation would not have a physical feeling feedback to my brain?) Needless to say I made that woman very uncomfortable in her seat as she felt the beginning stages of an orgasm (but I'm sure she loved it). I also found when talking to her she gave me that little 'puppy dog eyes' look.

As the hours passed (I noticed the effects dropped massively once I smoked a cigarette) the feeling began to fade but I never lost the ability of synchronicity I only lost the energy I once had.

So I'm setting out to find out (as scientificaly as I can) to find out can I enhance this or get some 'real' results other than what may just be in my head.

So this is day 2 of no masturbating and I must say its pretty hard. Also as I'm building up energy I am going to focus it on a certain girl in my life I have had a pretty major falling out with (she won't talk to me) to see if I can make her contact me.

As for reality I have my own theory on why so many people have had positive experiences but as soon as it is brought into a scientific environment that it never works.

I call it the Law of contradiction

The premise is that in quantum physics the act of perceiving something changes what it is. I find that quantum physics is a good meter to understanding spiritualistic sciences (as I've spent the last 3 years researching and comparing the two to prove this theory but I'll get onto that in another post as it's really Loooooooooong). Understanding that I guess you could say that if a person beleives it's magical it will be as there is nobody to say otherwise but I have some more experiments that I'll post on here to prove to people how this works but I'll leave it to fate to when this happens as I dont really want to force anyone to read this. I'll just make it available and if you find it I hope I can help with what you're looking for.

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